I've decided to go on leave of absence from derby. I'm just overwhelmed with criticism and dark anxiety, I can't go on like this. I want to help the team, not bail on my other duties. I just need a break from skates for awhile. Not a total break. I fully intend to pursue hoopskating. I love being on skates. This might be right up my alley.
Leave of absence is 90 days. I should know by then whether I miss derby and want to return or whether it's time to move on with my head held high. Perhaps during this time, with the pressure off me, I can be myself around them. It's kind of hard to get to know the real me when I'm trapped in anxiety hell.
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